The rain has come again
The earth laments with joy
The trees joyful and merry
The flowers expectant and welcoming
Every drop is like a gentle caress
Every drop brings life
Every drop brings hope
And this is how you are to me
I bask in your sweetness and light
This pure gust of happiness
The joy and sadness that you bring
Sitting here by the window
I can feel you...
Ah, wishful madness...
Love again came to me in most unexpected ways
This precious feeling I tried to keep at bay
As light and happy as the clouds on a clear day
drunk and happy like a prey
As light and happy as I am
I can almost touch the sky
Bid loneliness goodbye
Greet this day with a smile
Looking out from my window I wonder why...
Pure bliss shrouds everything that's dry
Siphons everything else grim and dark in me in a single try
I wish you'll stay for real
I wish you'll be as tangible as the breeze that blows gently on sail
My heart is so full
I feel like a fool
And the wide world knows how I feel
Given conditions ever surreal
Oblivious to all the wrinkles but you my soleil!
In the morning light I think about you
How this love became as real as you
It's a mystery
I have known you for a while now
I was fascinated but unsure anyhow
You're so far away
It used to be so easy to pretend that you're just my sky
The elusive sky that lights up my life everytime I bid love goodbye...
I am but a girl inlove once more
Always unsure but ready to take the plunge
Ready to jump and scale if you want to have this chance
I wish the sky could bring me love
I wish I could touch and feel your love
Loving you ...
Missing you...
Longing for you...
Let love unfold in me...
As fragile as the naked glass, the halo that enclosed me for the last 4 weeks
dessipated...
Swept by pouring rain and pummeled by raindrops one after the other...
the onus flooded and ebbed all the insanities of the moment
Thunder roared and lightning strike
hitting its mark
hammering everything without respite
Then came the rain again
sprayed on and on
cleansing mind and body
truly ebbing the last traces of the bubble that enclosed and sheltered me madly
A love defined
A true love undone
Gently accepting
knowing the silence
letting go of love and possession
And so it is finally...
I don't know about you but I feel so contented
It's like my heart is growing bigger...bigger than everything inside
Makes me wonder about what it is that happened...?
Makes me believe that comets just don't dart past through...it blinks and lights up the darkest corners of our lives.
Here I am trying to decide what to write
All I can manage is this feeling that is beyond grasp
It's not wearing off, but gaining strength and power day by day...
Amidst the troubles...the death of a man who stood by his ideologies ---a good friend of mine discovering that she is not as strong...of a beautiful child that is brought to life...
It's just simply humbling
Everything seems to just fall into place
Positive thoughts reap positive outcomes
My life back on track
the challenge is back
As I was walking along the way
My mind astray
Of the most wonderful thought
the most cherished love, I sought
So here I am with you
Not together but part of you
Hoping to loop our lives
In one big circle called life
Saturday, 6.08 AM
Davao
E.E. Cumming's poem speaks about the deepest pleasure of loving someone and being together with that person...which renders the deepest pleasure imaginable.
This profound feeling I can relate to --- this surging intuition of hope feels so good inside. And yet this is not how it ends...many of what I feel comes from the knowing --- my awareness of this element bigger than myself. As I am writing this...I feel there's another mind that is helping me compose, ending this solitude --- magnifying hope.
It's a rainy morning here in my hometown...
The media networks are really busy with today's national event --- The Philippine Independence day!
But it's not a happy event...as usual.Our country is mired with all sorts of really dirty politics. I am not happy with it...everyone is painful about what's goin on!
It's shameful to admit that this is the first time that I am really that excited to vote...and the ironic thing is no one deserves the Filipino people's vote!
And so this today's celebration of independence is still a big SHAM! Freedom perpetuated by those people who still refuse to let our beloved country live and learn!
The banana griefs is one great example of how politics are failing to answer the very issues that nmatter...
I am going to end this monologue by saying a little prayer..."My beloved country, may you enlighthen the minds of the banana plantations to shift to organic...treat their workers well, make the village people lived well and healthy --- and may they share a little of their profit to a lot of good causes...". Amen.
Today's weather was really grim and dark...
It started with a really maddening technical problem...my ever reliable internet connection not working despite of my brilliant teke capabalities...not being able to check my email this morning...getting so frustrated that it's not working.
But then I thought I was a little bit out of the weather as well. My mind and body felt really weak...
And so I am going to end this musing unfinished...hoping to do this tomorrow...when I have time or the sudden inspiration...
Night world!
